For the past three years, I've been swimming in a little pond of grief... fluctuating between denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. I lost my Dad, my youth (actually happened awhile ago... just now facing that), my period, our dog, and, in many ways, my daughter and grandson. I've given up on some "dreams" or "ideals" of family and friendships. I've drifted from God. I've let my health level fall. Now, don't let this sound like my life is all pitiful. It is, most certainly, not. I am very blessed and enjoy a good life with a wonderful husband. I just haven't been thriving in the way that I have enjoyed in the past. I have struggled... with the grief. I'm ready to move on.
I think I am to a place of acceptance (something in me just rejected that... that's a little worrisome).
I could list a million things that I "should" work on. I need to lose weight, get my cholesterol lower, organize my closets, clean out the cluttered laundry room, organize my desk, work in the yard, get the house power washed, finish the living room make-over, mail thank you notes, etc... etc... But, I need goals to hit closer to the center. Goals to bring joy to every day living. Tammy from Timeless and Tattered made this comment earlier on my blog: I want to make my life mean more. Not just the big picture but I want to see the worth in the small things. I want to do more things with my family - not planned big events but just "live" with my family. Enjoy the moments. I want to breathe them in so as not to let all the good stuff slip away. Basically to quote Tim McGraw- I want to live like there is no tomorrow- EVERY DAY. tammy
I bought a book last year entitled How We Choose To Be Happy by Rick Foster and Greg Hicks. According to their studies: there are nine choices that happy people make; the biochemistry of healthy people and happy people is close to the same; and, we can all improve on our level of contentment, capability and centeredness.
The first of these nine choices is: "Intention --the active desire and commitment to be happy and the decision to consciously choose attitudes and behaviors that lead to happiness over unhappiness." That's where I am. I have an intent to THRIVE.