Wednesday, November 6, 2013

On Broken Dreams...


It is probably wrong to love a house as much as I have loved this one...


It speaks to my very soul...


And... has held my dearest dream...


Of close family... 

 
Sunday dinners...
 

After school cookie baking...

 
Impromptu gatherings...
 

 
 Lives shared around a kitchen table..

 
All that was never a part of my childhood...  We always want what we didn't have, don't we?
 
 
I'm reconciling myself to the fact that dream is never going to be realized for me...  It has never been in my stars, as the old saying goes.
 
 
So, this chapter is closing...
 
 
My Beloved would like a different lifestyle... One near a golf course... A house with big closets... and a garage...
 

I've had my turn... So, we listed our Brick Street Bungalow and had an offer the second day...


We've been heatedly looking for a place to move.  The closing on Tallulah, The Brick Street Bungalow, is less than three weeks away.  I am going to have to be absent awhile longer as the frenzy continues...

 
 
I have missed keeping up with everyone... and I will have to continue to miss out for awhile longer.
 
This has been a difficult period for me... but, I'm ready to move on...  It is time.
 
Life will go on... New dreams will be born...
 
blessings to all ~ tanna
 
 
 
 

41 comments:

TexWisGirl said...

oh, tanna. i can feel your pain in this post. but so good of you to give your husband a chance at his dream, too. i know you will miss that grand yet cozy beauty.

Catherine said...

Dear Tanna, Your heart is breaking.
I hear it in your writing. I am sorry. It is not wrong to love your home the way you do. It is a testament to the dreams and love that has been shared and the memories made.
I will keep you in my prayers. That the memories will bloom in your new home and that you will find the happiness that is waiting for you.

Blessings dear friend and hugs, Catherine xo

It's Just Dottie said...

Oh!!!!
I know how it feels to lose a dream...
Hugs, Dottie

kathy b said...

Oh Tanna

THere will be unimagined blessings at your new home. WOW the tour of the BrickStreet home is amazing. Our home will be a tear down without a doubt.....that will be sad. Your home will be the source of much joy for a new lucky family.

How long have you been there?
On to golf coures views

Im saying a prayer for Peace and joy for you

Sandy said...

I am so sorry to read this, Tanna. I hope your new home will be every bit as special and that you and yours will experience even more wonderful times there. I am not surprised that your beautiful bungalow sold so quickly. It is so lovely.
Big Hugs!

Annette T. said...

Dear Tanna, I am so sorry to hear you have to leave your beloved home. I just had a conversation with a friend today about our homes and what they mean to us. I hear the heartache in your post, but I know that your new home will be lucky to have you and the love you will shower upon it. Prayers for you and I'll be thinking about you!

Happy Cottage Quilter said...

Dear Tanna,
Your home is certainly very beautiful, and full of happy memories. But as I have gotten older, I am realizing that its the people that make the happy time and the memories. I too did not have stability while growing up, and longed for that very thing. My dream was always to have a dinner table surrounded by my loved ones. It's not happening. So no matter where I live, the loved ones are the ones that are missing. You will build new memories wherever you go. And as long as you can gather around your family, it will be good.

Hugs, Jocelyn

Deb said...

oh sweet Tanna...I'm so sorry to hear you are leaving your beautiful brick bungalow....but I know you will make your next place a wonderful home...it will be a new love...so it will take awhile before you realize how special your new place will be...you are a sweet wife to do this for your Hubby...we will be here when you return...hugs and prayers sent your way...

Kim @ Savvy Southern Style said...

Oh, my you are moving!! Well, I am glad you finally shared a home tour. Your kitchen is fabulous. I know you will miss this home. Can't wait to see the new one.

Nita Stacy said...

Oh...this makes me so sad for you. It also makes me happy I don't have a husband and I can live in a quaint old house. I know these kinds of houses are not what men dream of...usually. I'm sure you'll make the new house beautiful and it will have wonderful things to offer too. But...oh...I feel your pain.

Bonnie said...

I will miss you while you are away. I have no doubt your dream will be realized in a different way. I loved your home tour. You have wonderful taste and it is not just a house but a wonderful home.


I will remember you Tanna, my friend in prayer during this transition. You are very special.

Betsy Brock said...

I have loved every little glimpse you have given us of this gorgeous home. wow...so full of memories. I can't wait to see you put your love and style into something new....a challenge I know you will embrace over time! hugs...

Judy S. said...

Now I know where you've been! It's hard to let go of a place with so many memories, but, Tanna, you will create another wonderfully cozy spot that will also have its special times and memories! Blessings to you in this new adventure! And some big hugs as well.

Terra said...

Tanna you are bold and strong. It is tough to move when I see how fabulous your home is and memories and hopes that fill it. I pray your new home will be filled with laughter and love.

steph said...

oh, Tanna. As an old bungalow owner (and lover) I know some of those feelings you are dealing with....I would be devastated leaving this old place (in spite of no closets, unpredictable surprises old houses are continually producing and all)...change is always hard, but a change in 'home' would be particularly challenging. But we all know...home is where we are at the moment...and where our loved ones are---and it isn't tied to a building or house; your new home (hopefully identified SOON!) will be wonderful and full of happiness! Good luck with the search---and the move---and look forward to seeing your new space!

Cheryl @ TFD said...

Oh Tanna, I am so sorry you are leaving your beautiful dream home. I hope you find a new home that will be just as warm and inviting and loved as this one. Blessings to you as you begin this new chapter in your life. Hugs, Cheryl

Tricia Buice said...

My heart aches for you. I see your handiwork in each and every beautiful photo of this dream home. I know you will be fine ... in time. I've never had a home I loved that much, but all those I've had before my current house were so much better. Best wishes and prayers for you dear Tanna!

podso said...

I have been missing you and wondered if this was happening quickly! At least you don't have to worry about owning two homes for awhile--thankful for your quick sale … but I sense it might be a little too quick for you! You have posted a beautiful heart-felt farewell to the home you love … I feel your pain deeply but love your attitude in looking forward! I will pray you find a place that you can make your own and call home and come to love like this one! I remember your bathroom re-do and I think the first time I "met you" was when you showed pictures of your bedroom--maybe you were doing something to it. (or maybe I'm thinking of an old girl.) Well I will be thinking of you in these days … big hugs ...

Changes in the wind said...

Your home is beautiful but just remember it is because it was you who put your hand to it. I am sure your new place will display your heart is all its glory as well. Hope the move goes well for you.

Catherine Holman said...

How difficult it must be to give up your beautiful home! We have been considering the same thing though. Our home is too big for the two of us and I'm not sure how much longer we want to keep up with the work on a big old house. I'm really torn and know how you feel.

Susan Struck said...

Your Brick Street Bungalow really has been a beautiful home for you. This is a loss you need to mourn. However, I expect the walls and floors and roof are not what made it a beautiful home. What made it a beautiful home was your sweet decorative style, the love of family and the warmth of memories.
Luckily, those things all go with you.

Betty@SouthernGrace said...

Ohhhh Tanna....I know this is crazy but this post made me CRY. What a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful house you have. I am at a loss for words! Let me talk to your husband!!!

Dana said...

Oh my goodness! I will keep you in my prayers. I know how tough this must be. It is such a beautiful home. I can't wait to see what your next adventure is!!!!

From the Kitchen said...

My friend, I can somewhat relate! It sounds as if you quickly found someone to love the bungalow. It is lovely and the work you've put it in shows a great deal of care. Best wishes on finding another home soon and falling in love with it as well.

Best,
Bonnie

Kim said...

Oh you poor sweet girl. Your sadness is almost tangible. Please know that you are not alone. We are contemplating a lifestyle change too that I know in my heart is going to be difficult for all of us. But where one door closes, another one opens. Literally sometimes.
Keeping you in my thoughts.
xoxo,
Kim

Chatty Crone said...

I am a little confused. Is this your home now or one that you wanted to have? I assume it is yours - and it is amazing. I can see why you don't want to move. So why are your moving? And I feel your sadness. I just know that when you move - and it is soon - that you will be with your husband - and you will be so happy being where he is. sandie

Marissa said...

What a beautiful home. I feel for you!!!

Donna said...

Yikes and wowwy!
You will make wherever you land just as special as the BSB..I'm just hoping that you are landing closer to Virginia....just hoping....
Wish I lived close enough now to come and help you pack and stuff. I would.
Love you.
d.

Melissa aka twoknitwit said...

your post made me cry...both times I read it, Tanna

I truly understand your pain but also your reason for embracing the change no matter how difficult the choice

sometimes we do things just for the sake of love ~ and I know wherever you end up will soon fill with new memories and you will make it 'you' and it will become home because of the love you fill it with

I hope the change brings much joy after the heartache subsides

Melissa

Stitchy Mc Floss said...

Oh dear Tanna, I wish I could give you a hug. :)

That is awesome that it sold so quickly, and who knows, maybe the new house will have more charm than you dreamed possible near a golf course! And you know that no matter where you go, all the love of those around you will follow…there will be more dinners, and cookies and most of all family to share many new memories with, too.

Blessings to you always sweet friend

Rose said...

My heart was racing as I was reading each of the captions below the pictures you posted. I love your house and whomever purchased it is very, very lucky. You too are very luck! As I read the captions I was anxious to get to the end to find out what was happening; I though much worse than the sale of the house. I am happy you're still in good health, your husband is in good health and is still committed to you. The memories you have of the rooms in your beautiful bungalow will always be with you. God is sending you on new and wonderful adventure. Enjoy the journey. I will pray that your sadness lifts and your heart renewed with joy.
Missing you… :)

Janette's Sage/Simply Your Decor said...

The house is beautiful...but the heart behind the words is what I relate to so well. I also think about how God wants the best for His children, and sometimes we can't see it. I pray that as you walk out you will see the "new dream" for your "new wineskins" that the Lord has already seen before you.
Blessings!!!

Shug said...

Oh my Tanna....in reading this, it reminded me of the show "Parenthood"
On this show, it's the wife that wants to move on to better things, and the husband is so heart broken..
I love you home.....and I'm sad for you. I know that no matter where your new home will be, you will find happiness... It's just the way you are, to find good in everything. I hope the very best for you and this endeavor that you and your husband are moving toward.
Blessings...please keep us posted!!
hugs

Cindy said...

I am very sorry for you... I know you will make a newer home into a wonderful retreat for yourself and your beloved.
Have a good day and we will be here when you return to blog land!
Hugs, Cindy

Solar Powered said...

I love that house and your dream of that house. I find such comfort in a home and the little (big) meaningful moments that come with the heart of a home. And this post speaks to me and teaches me the wisdom of sometimes letting dreams go (a hard thing for me). I can only imagine how hard it is to say goodbye. I still cry when in Dallas and I drive by Coronado. In the end, home is where the heart is. Isn't that what they say? Miss you and your family :)

Jill from Killeny Glen said...

Oh Tanna! My heart breaks for you! I know you are in mourning! What wonderful memories in your gorgeous home. Moving from it will NEVER take away those wonderful memories. I have an aunt that my entire life would say. "It's a GOOD thing I don't care about THINGS." Yet we do don't we? You will be HAPPY and fall in love with your NEW home and make it your own in NO TIME!
Praying for you as you make this big transition!!! Adventures to be had for you!!! They will be GRAND!

Starla said...

Miss you, Tanna! So sorry to know you are moving, but so happy to help you do so. Moving work should not be attempted without the help of willing friends! And you have some inspirational friends that would love to help you!

Tammy@T's Daily Treasures said...

It is a gorgeous home. Love that kitchen floor. Perhaps you have to let go fully so that the next chapter can begin. Have faith! :) Tammy

Vicki Boster said...

Tanna- change is so hard sometimes. I wish you great happiness (and a smooth transition) as you close this chapter and begin your new life in a wonderful new place.

It will be fine-- and we are anxious for you to share when you get settled--
Vicki

Lisa (Needles and Wool) said...

it is a gorgeous house! I love every room and the decor is beautiful. I love the front porch as well. I hope that you love the new place equally if not more!

Lisa

Betty@SouthernGrace said...

Tanna. I finally got a chance to show this post to my husband. He's been sitting here with my iPad saying wow, wow, wow. We love your house especially the kitchen. I've been talking about it ever since you posted this. I showed him some of your knitting projects too. Another wow. lol

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