Thursday, July 12, 2012
"Have you noticed that an angry man can only get so far... until he reconciles the way he thinks things ought to be with the way they are..." ~ My Thanksgiving by Don Henley, Stan Lynch, Jal Winding
"To want what I have and take what I'm given with grace... for this I pray..." ~ For My Wedding by Larry John McNally
Seems the elation and the sense of life and freedom one gains after learning the cancer will not claim their life dissipates after awhile... and the old concerns settle themselves back into your bones once more. I know about "letting go" about "moving on"... all the cliched terms and tactics for living a happy life... things I have learned well; but, how does one let go when it is your children? Pray, tell me how. How do you reconcile yourself to how things are without giving up hope... without giving up them?
The sorrow that has settled in my soul distances me from God. From my Beloved. From myself. I want to be free of it... but, I cannot take flight. I cannot take flight.