Friday, April 13, 2012
Into the Rabbit Hole...
It seems once you trip into a rabbit hole, the tumbles continue. I went into the surgeon's office yesterday expecting to schedule an excision of the lesion on my leg, possibly with a skin graft and then to follow up with the dermatologist at 3 month intervals.
I came out with a plan to have a radio-detectable injection into the area around the lesion next Friday... a short wait and then the excision of the sentinel lymph node for biopsy... followed by the excision of the lesion to muscle fascia. The surgeon does expect to be able to close without skin graft (that's good news). The part, I guess that threw me most, was her insistence that I see an oncologist... it seems that word, that specialty, and all that it implies just threw me farthest into the hole.
I am regrouped now. Feel good with the plan. I have discussed, studied, researched Breslow's Depths, Ulceration, Mitotic Rates and Clark's Levels way more than I would have ever wanted to do. The part that still leaves me a little shaky is that the biopsy was a 4mm circle; there is probably five times that still left... with an uncertain value on all of those scales. I will be happy when it is out next week.
I cannot possibly begin to tell you how much your prayers and concern mean to me. In an e-mail from Pondside, she stated: I learned that the prayers of people I didn't even know were like a bulwark for me. When I couldn't pray myself I was supported by the prayers of others. Amen and amen. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
**DISCLAIMER** One more thing about yesterday's post, the GPA thing was mostly an attempt at levity. I do know some excellent physicians who had less than (not much) a 4.0 GPA. They tend to be the intuitive, gifted healers. I also know some people with 4.0s that didn't have a lick of technical or intuitive skill. The best physicians are the ones with the 4.0 GPA, an intuitive gift and technical skills to match... along a strong faith and acknowledgment of God's ultimate sovereignty. It is an art as well as a science.
I apologize for not having visited the past two days... I am hoping for this evening. You know I'll be having to find out what's going on! I still shake my head in wonder that this world of blogging has attached me to folks I have never met, but feel like I know. Thank you again for your concerns and your prayers.
blessings to each of you ~ tanna